it’s a lot harder to get noticed in the middle, but it’s also generally the voice that intellectually honest consumers of information are looking for.
the real trouble is the dearth of that in audience adoption numbers. you can see why: experiences like yours make it all to clear. the trouble is, when level-headed seekers of truth move, there’s nothing keeping a conversation from polarizing.
take the time for some self-care, but as other commenters have noted please, please don’t give up.